Clinician days Vs Legit Doc days

Honestly, I didnt imagine to be receiving this much respect ever since i became licensed. hehe

I mean before nung student pa ako, whenever we make tambay dun sa carenderia(sp?) pag free time or before nung nagrereview pa, we get weird looks whenever na overstaying na kami. i mean pag tipong two hours nang ubos food namin pero nakatambay pa din :))) HAHAHA broke days lol

but now since most of my friends and co workers still live around the area (mendiola) plus lately since ive free time na (or medyo sinisipag na ako to spend time with friends) napapadalas ako dun. and we still eat dun sa carenderia tapos now were being called "doc" na.
before pag bibili ako ng mountain dew self service ako kukuha ng bote ako magbubukas pati straw ako. ngayon sineserve na saken. whyyy ate im still the same old douche girl tambay nagkalicense lang.

wala lang. nakakatuwa lang. but to be honest i felt like nothing has changed naman.
oo licensed na ako, doc na ako. medyo formal formalan na dapat. pero im still the same girl.
i thought before when i was working so hard to get my license na everything would change na id become like this and that and all that crap pero no.
tumaas lang ung pressure pero im still the same.
what i need to change is my weight. LOL
just kidding :)))

anyway i need to watch crazy ex girlfriend na. BYE!

this substance.

this substance i'm not supposed to take.
kept me from saying the things i wanted to..to you.

this substance tried to kept me sane
but all I can really think of was what happened between me and you

this substance calms my soul
adds up a little bit of gravity
distracted me..
and it kept me away from you.

the things i'm supposed to say.
words i wanted to speak.
all of them locked up in my brain.
he gave me this substance,
and i lost another chance with you.

I am lost?

ewan ko ba fumufirst world problem ako.
eh kung problemahin ko na lang ung inet? lol
basta i don't feel like i am myself right now?
feeling ko di ako to eh.
may mali.
may kulang.
di ko alam kung ano. hay :(

CEBU dental mission and team building!!:)

grabbed photos :) :)
ESEC dental mission and team building! yay!:)

Salamat ng madami sa mga boss ko :) one for the books!:)

Joke lang

i was just joking about my post yesterday haha:))

Nagising na ako sa katotohanan one of my friends reminded me why i shouldnt overthink kung ano yun basta tawa ako ng tawa. Wala lang pala ung relapse of feelings na un. Chorva lang yun :)))

Yung moment na minessage ka bigla ni "the one that got away" #araykobeh

Shit. alam mo yung feeling na shit lang di ka prepared and all.
so instead of agreeing to meet up with the Mr. the one that got away, you turned down the offer even if gustong gusto mo just because of lack of preparation and nag hang ka lang bigla. di mo alam gagawin mo so instead of grabbing the oportunity na magkita kayo ulit. you lost it. you lost your chance.
it may never come back again and i,of all people, should know that.
pero i did nothing.
im so stupid :(
sayang.
wala na.
better luck next time.
if may next time pa
kung meron pa.
if wala
fine.
huhuhu.
#araykobeh

sorry if...

I havent made time to blog and update my life.
there's just been too much going on. ive been struggling and stressing about work and work requirements.

I guess ive been pushing myself a little bit too hard and when I dont meet my goals or my own expectations i get really upset.

sooo yeah. i'm sorry for doing that to myself and do you know that feeling when youve pushed yourself too hard and you dont get the validation that you want parang napapagod ka na lang and then you stop achieving and being competitive then you realize "pucha? ano bang gusto kong patunayan? pinapahirapan ko lang sarili ko sus. pwede namang chill lang. tangina mukha lang akong tanga."

i'm that kind of person kasi na laging naghahanap ng validation. before sobra sobra lalo na nung nasa relationship pa ako until nawala na talaga but somehow ever since i started working parang bumabalik na naman eh. which is totally wrong and i think i need to get back to my old self. not really old just the me that used to be when i was preparing for boards. anyway. ive mentioned it in my previous post.


i think i need to undergo therapy. i just really need someone who will listen to all my struggles and weird shallow problems cuz i havent had a single person to talk to about what ive been going through lately....

my mom, my gosh. she's a psychic. instantly knows that im not okay whenever i get home from work and all pero of course i wont tell her. she wouldnt understand. iisa lang naman sasabihin sakin eh.

hay ewan. hormones ko lang to

nagboblog lang naman ako pag mataas na estrogen ko pag malapit na ako magkaroon (i just realized now)
oa ung stress whenever im about to have my period. it sucks being a girl but its also better than being a guy.

haha,