Rave songs make me...

RAVE?
nahhh.

every EDM song I here reminds me of you. (*hear pala)
*sigh*
Am I over you?
Did I even like you back then?
idk. ugh

HIATUS

for real. be back in a month or so.

abs are made in the kitchen

ive been working out a lot lately but i never ate clean :D

ive been eating a lot of junk pa nga. i lost weight pero not as much as I would if di na ko kumain ng junk foods. SOOO next week, ill eat healthy and clean :) try ko lang if pinagsabay ko workout plus diet.

beast mode na. max results pa :P

btw.

I deactivated my instagram account (didnt know it was possible pala, until kanina).

so yeah, I wanted to deactivate my fb account din sana pero siguro next year na lang, para legit starting over lol. haha

I mean, I have made so much mistakes this year and last year. I have learned so much as well.

As in grabe, sobrang dami kong learnings. 

The best part of everything that i've been through is that I got to know myself better. 

Ang tagal tagal ko nang "ako" pero hindi ko pa pala talaga kilala sarili ko.

whatever stuff ive been through since last year, kahit ive been through so much pain, okay lang kasi ive gotten to know myself better. I can say na kilalang kilala ko na sarili ko. and that, hindi ako mabubuo kung di nangyari yung mga yun.

tapos, natutunan ko kung pano maging masaya even if hindi lahat ng bagay meron ka. yung kuntento ka lang sa kung anong meron. bastaaaaaa. ang saya saya ko lang. Thank you Lord. 

sobrang napalayo na naman ako sayo, pero kahit anong gawin ko, sayo pa din ang ending ko. thank you po!:)

Where is the Love?

I know I said i'm going to continue writing about the moving on thingy but I just felt the need to rant about this.

I know I'm not perfect. I used to hate on a lot of stuff so much. 

I get pissed easily by a lot of things, little things.

I am so good at judging and bashing people even if they didn't harm me naman.

I used to be really mean, i'm saying this because this post is a "preach" kind of post, and i dont want you to think that I am a righteous person.

Looking back, I dont even know why I did those things.

kahit naman ngayon, I still cannot filter my thoughts.

I mean, sometimes i still have negative thoughts, BUT, lesser compared before. 

plus now, whenever i think of something negative I immediately tell myself "Nope, niksi, kalma lang. no hate, just love. No hate, Just love." (that's my mantra na)

I know, ive done  a lot of mistakes before, but you know, its never too late to fix them and change(i'm only 24, i still have a lot ahead of me)

I know, there are people that ive hurt. 

I also havent really settled a lot of past issues, but of course, I am very much willing to clear everything. I just dont think it's the right time yet. I don't want any "resistance". And if there is, the only thing that I can do is to let it be. It's better that way than to force myself into something that just wont happen. So, I'll wait (for the right moment)

What i'm trying to say is, I'm not perfect. I have flaws. I am human, its my nature to make mistakes.

BUUUUT. We werent described as the Most intelligent animal in this planet if we cannot do something about it diba? So we can improve our personality. And that's what ive been working on lately.

I still have tendencies to hate, but as much as possible, whenever I hear negative stuff about me, I try to understand the situation of the other party na lang (the one who's hating on me). I mean, if that's what he/she feels about me. If that's his/her judgment. I cannot do anything about it. I can defend myself but what's the point. The person has his/her own mind. you cant control them. if they dont like me then fine. 

everyone is entitled to their own opinion :)

Guys, let's not hate. Let's love each other. 

I know not everyone is lovable or likable and we would always find a reason not to like someone (even if its our first time to see or meet that person. laging may judgments, even if we don't really know that person).

Why do we need to have assumptions on someone that we dont even know? It's useless. total waste of energy. you will only stress yourself. and when youre stressed, your body will release cortisol. and do you know what cortisol does to your body? it can make you fat. (if you want to know how, google can answer that :D) so if you're conscious about your physical appearance. Relax. Chill. Good vibes! haha!

ANYWAY, let's just try to be positive and loving and not hate on so much people.

PLUS, let's not assume pala (i almost forgot)[this is a whole different story though)  

If we're not sure of something. i mean if there's no evidence and we're just making assumptions based on our observations, let's not be suspicious na lang. better yet, just confront that person instead of, assuming of something na he/she did and  youre not even sure naman.

Kaya nga there's a so-called "due process" diba,
 "Innocent until proven guilty" yun lang.

Anyyyyy

SMILE! SPREAD GOOD VIBES AND LOVE :)

Is there such thing as "UNLOVE": Step 2

(sorry for the delay, i have been really busy yesterday)

STEP 2:
Go crazy (magwala ka)


I think this is the time where you really lose yourself. 
No appetite, 
you cry your heart out, 
you stay up all night, 
pray and ask God what you did to deserve this 
and the whole dramatic hulabaloo. (with matching "walling" pa minsan :D)

I swear, when you have moved on already and you look back at the things that you did during this stage, promise, you will laugh at yourself. 

ANYWAYYYYY.

These are the common things you (we) do during this stage:
> Mornings when you wished you did not wake up na lang because you don't want to feel the pain anymore.

>You randomly text your ex's friends and ask them what to do, how your ex is doing, if the friend thinks that you and your ex still have a chance together etc etc (mas masasaktan ka lang)

>You watch ONE MORE CHANCE OVER AND OVER AGAIN and you wish you would have the same ending like the movie's 

>Youre always tempted to text or call your ex. There will be a time(or times) when you cant stop yourself from texting him/her the dreadful "i miss you"

> cry.sleep.cry.sleep repeat

My Advice:
JUST DO IT
I mean yeah, if you feel like crying, cry. no one's stopping you (kahit maglupasay ka pa dyan, go lang)
It hurts so bad, right? let it consume you, for a week? two weeks? one month? 
Just release all the stress, pain etc just release everything.
It's normal, youre human. you feel. you get hurt. and that's totally fine.
you will get tired of doing that naman eventually.

And when the moment comes that you feel better, its the time you start stalking your ex (mehehehe) 
I don't really recommend that you do this, but either way, you will eh. 
so why stop you?  On to the next step...

[x]DRAMA KING/QUEEN STAGE
[x]LOSE WEIGHT (sure pumayat ka niyan, o diba win-win! haha)STEP 3: STALK.

Is there a need to explain further? 
that's self explanatory na diba.

Down side of doing this is there will be relapses plus if you find out that your ex is dating someone new already. BOOM. OUCH. (tagos, punit, sabog. aray)

My defense: 
ITS TOTALLY OKAY TO STALK YOUR EX [sure ako sinostalk ka din nya]
(kasi a lot of people or your friends will tell you to delete and unfollow your ex to all of your social media accounts but for me, chill. dont do any of that. stalk lang ng stalk lol.) 
For me, the more you see that your ex is moving on and is totally fine without you, 
the more that you gain strength and get to encourage yourself to feel better, let go and move on. USE IT AS YOUR MOTIVATION (aka, NASA AKIN ANG HULING HALAKHAK. bwahahahahaha)
so, yeah, whatever. 

[x] stalking skills level-up to level 999999

Just dont get stuck in Step 2. ;)

STEP 4...
next post :D :D :D


PS: everything I say, they're based on my experience.
I'm not forcing you guys to follow these steps when youre trying to move on.
I'm just sharing :D

Is there such thing as "UNLOVE"?

You're prolly thinking that I'm going through some rough patch right now (Duh, we are all going through something, all the time).and the answer is: Yes, I am. buuut not because i am heartbroken (such a no-brainer, im not even in love with someone. i dont even think id ever be inlove again[idk, just kidding]).

Anyway,  I am not heartbroken but i know a lot who are under the sheets all day, crying their hearts out and prolly listening to adele songs non stop --been there, done that lol. AND I want you guys to know that ITS JUST A PHASE (my fave line hihi).

everything bad that youre going through right now, they are all just a phase. AND YOU WILL BE FINE. lol

move on. stop crying. get your shit together. life goes on. the world wont stop revolving just because your ex lover left you. think. don't be stupid. youre better than that. this may sound cliche but there are millions of fish in the sea.

JUST KIDDING. 

I am not that mean, man.

this post is dedicated to those who are having a hard time forgetting their ex signicant other. 

I hope, these guidelines (guidelines???) would be of help to whatever sh*t youre going through right now. 

I will give out a few things that you can do to forget that person. 

STEP 1:

Be STUPID.

When I say be stupid, I mean like uhm hmmm urgh uhhhh..remove your pride?

So your ex-lover dumped you, what do you do? nothing? you wait for that person to realize that he/she cannot live without you? eh what if he/she wont ever realize that? what will you do?

This is where you let all your guards down. (baka naman kasi nagpapahabol lang, edi habulin mo leche)

yup, you read that right. habulin mo, magpakatanga ka. why not? minsan lang naman eh (unless sobrang lagi mo na ginagawa, iba na yun).

Give the person like a week or so(ikaw bahala, kung paano mo kilala yung person), and if your ex didnt even try to contact you within that period, this is where you go crazy. lol.

Chase him/her. here are your options:

(If your ex doesnt reply to your texts and wont answer your calls anymore)

you can make a letter of how sorry you are. 

surprise visit him/her (workplace/school/home)

or whatever crazy idea you can think of at that moment. (flowers, chocolates, balloons etc)

Act desperate. [FYI, you will only do this once. DO NOT DO THIS REPEATEDLY, that's crazy!]

dude, desperate times need desperate measures eh. HAHAHAHA!

BUT, you have to be prepared. Most of the time you will know if the "break-up" is for real or just a "pa-cute break-up".and when you feel like its the "for-real kind of break-up" then you must be ready for a negative outcome. Sometimes, the person just doesn't love you anymore and that person feels like he/she would be making it even harder for both of you if you guys continue the relationship/ its for the best (famous break-up line lol). Maybe you guys are not growing together na in the relationship, instead, you guys are growing apart.

If the result is negative, (I know its very painful to accept but look at the bright side). Just try to see the positive side. You did your part. You will have NO REGRETS because you know you did everything to save the relationship. And that there will be a better closure na. 

The other party prolly made it clear na why he/she doesnt want to continue the relationship anymore(during your surprise/crazy plan to save the relationship). 

Cross them out of your list. 

[x]Closure

[x]No regrets.

Step 2 

hahaha, i will be posting it tomorrow.:D 

I only have an hour to spare to write eh. ayun.

Writer's block?

Ughhhh. Nope. I actually thought of a good content last night but im sooo busy as f. I have to finish rewriting reviewers faster. Huhu. I need to concentrate re reading and re-listening  (the lectures)
Ill be back in a week or month or worst, next year :(

To #tinder or not to Tinder, That is the question.

Yes, i know, tinder. don't be judgmental. hahaha.

i really dont want to sign up because 

#1 ive no time to chat with pervs

#2 if there's i guy na i would prolly like, i still have no time for him

#3 I just really have no time to waste for guys that are on tinder.

WHY, i kind of want to sign up again.

guys, i used tinder before to help my "club promoter" friend to get  guests. 

that's why the reason why I want to have a tinder account again is......

ten ten tenenenenenen!!!!

I want to grow my blog audience.

but as I type, i realized, naaaah.

there's no way im going back to tinder just because i want to have more readers.

i'll just work on my content na lang. 

plus, the good side about me, blogging again is that, this is kind of my social life right now. i dont have anyone one to talk to because i just dont have the time to spare to go out and have coffee or chill with my friends (because im busy studying and working out plus im too lazy to go out, tbh) soooo yeah. that's it. no need to grow my audience. 

what the efff im rumbling.

to be honest, i want to vlog but i dont have a good vlogging camera plus. idk. i feel like id look stupid when i do it here in the phil.

i kind of need to study na, since i slept the whole day yesterday because i was sick and dehydrated etc etc. so i need to go back grinding again. byeeeee.

I AM A LESBIAN?

hahaha. i'm definitely one of the boys but I am so not emotionally attracted to girls (physically, hhmmmm ang dami kasing hot girls sooo, sometimes hihi)

So yeah, why the title? haha. well, a few months ago, there has been a rumor about me that i am dating this girl and that we're actually together daw. of course, i laughed the eff of my ass off when i heard of it.
i mean seriously people. can I not be just friends with someone without malice? lagi ba dapat may something?
i did not make a big deal out of it because, obviously, these people do not know me. If they do (friends ko pa "daw" yung iba na nagkakalat ah) they would defend me and laugh at that someone who's spreading the rumor, but noooo, they believed that person and spread it too! (yan spread lang ng spread eh, hirap pag mahilig mag spread.....ng legs, JOKE)

guys, you have to learn how to treat people equally.
if you consider someone as your "girl friend" then treat her the way you treat your other girl friends even if that person is sexually challenged. Dude, she is still a girl. you dont discriminate her or treat her differently just because she's not as girly as you are. diba? what you should do is try to influence her with your girliness (does that word even exist?) and try to make her a girl? (am I making any sense?) haha. but if it wont work, then that's fine. you don't want to force people to do things they dont want to. so just be there for them and be their friend.
just because youre being nice to that person and you guys are like being close and stuff then that doesnt mean that you have feelings for that person already.

the problem with most of us is that we tend to judge people immediately when in fact we dont really know what's happening and we dont even know anything literally.

My cousin (lesbo cousin) who lives in US told me that maybe people thought of me as a lesbian because I openly accept that people like them exist. plus, its different here nga daw in the philippines. most of the people are malicious daw.

oh well, enough of the drama.
ive come to the point where i dont really care what people think about me because, either way, they're going to judge me. Plus, i'm working on spreading love and care and empathy and all the good stuff that you can give to the people (the best things to give daw ay love, care etc emotional stuff not material things) so that I can receive those as well.

you should be a loving person too. :) good vibes only!:)

PS, it doesnt just go with lesbians ah, if youre a dude and you have a gay friend(kahit hindi mo friend as long as that person treats you right), be open-minded, remember, if that person is just friends with you, he/she will be just friends with you no matter what. nothing more, nothing less.

#lesbians #lesbo #LGBT #LGBTCOMMUNITY #ISupportLGBTCommunity

Are you sure you have moved on?

Warning: #hugot post

After an end of a relationship, everyone goes thru some phase. 
after you pour out all the tears that you could. After you finished all the bottles of alcohol that you thought numb the pain at the moment. After you danced all the pain away at all the clubs and parties that you went to. after you YOLO-ed enough just to make yourself believe that those  were the best days of your life. You know, just like any normal human being living in this planet,  you will sober up.
Everything will be back to normal and i guess when you get back to that "normal" it means "dude, let go of the pain, its time to grow up."

And believe it or not this is the only time that you get to have your shit together. 
And then you start to realize stuff, You  make yourself believe that you only need yourself to be complete. That no one in this world could make you happy aside from yourself, your family, your friends and God etc, etc (some became religious pa nga ha-ha)

Its a long process no? Moving on. 
You thought that just because you got over your ex and your feelings for him/her you have already moved on.  You thought that just because you have successfully mastered the art of being alone and actually enjoyed it, you're fine na. 

Idk about you, but for me, I think I have moved on when I have already let go of all the bad memories and pain of the disaster of my past relationship
 I am okay when I am able to open up myself to someone again and when I'm not  afraid to get hurt again.
I have moved on when I see a couple and myyour initial reaction is "awww so sweet" not "psh #theresnosuchthingasforever #youwillbreakupsoon #walangforever #damikonghugot #holdinghandspakayomagbreakdinkayo".
And I know that I have  moved on when I now have a positive feeling on my future relationship with a possible prospect.(HE-HE-HE)

Well, those are just my opinion. 
Ikaw, How can you tell that you have moved on from a traumatic break-up? 
do you have your pointers din ba? 

#HUGOT #HUGOTPOST #WALANGFOREVER #MAYFOREVERBA

sense please?

i promise to update this blog with posts that have sense next time.
omg im so sleepy i got home really late sooooooo
fuck you quezon city traffic!

Why letting go of someone is like having your long hair cut short.

Consuming too much grooming time, hair strands everywhere and all those crappy stuff that you have to go through when you have very long hair, srsly, it just makes you want to have it really short to end your hair problems, right. But would you?

I mean like, would you just have it short all of a sudden, when you invested so much time and energy taking care of it? would it be that easy to give it up just like that?

I don't know about long-haired guys, but, for most of us girls, it is not easy to let go of our locks.
We invest so much money, spend so much time fixing it and thinking of what kind of 'do we would have for the day, you know girl stuff.
PLUS, we girls, believe (correct me if im wrong) that our hair has a big impact on how we look(its not easy to risk our long hair when we seriously have no idea  how we look with short hair, if it would make us pretty or ugly) . So yeah, we basically need  a whole week or maybe a month to decide whether we'd stay friends with our long hair or FO na, If its causing too much of a hassle and not worth the effort, time and energy anymore, & we really need to get rid of it... Ooooor, we just dont want to have it long anymore then we need a hell lot of time. and i mean A LOT.

Same with relationships, we all invest a lot in it.
We would do everything to fix it, if something goes wrong.
We would make sure that we don't screw up and mess it up.
AND we would always put our best efforts to maintain it.
But what if all of a sudden nothing feels and seems right anymore, what do we do? 

If It is not making us happy anymore, problems keep on piling and nothing is solved...do we just cut it off? let it go? burn bridges? what?

diba?

Just like the long hair, its causing too much problem, no matter how many times we try to fix it, get treatment at the salon etc, it just not enough.
It will eventually become the ugly, dead and dry hair  of ours again. Oh no wait, it is UGLIER and more dead and dry because of the chemicals we put on it.
And then when it returns to the ugly hair, we repeat the procedure, again and again and again til we get tired of maintaining our dead and helpless hair.
Tapos, We'd realize, why the hell are we spending so much money, time and effort to maintain our hair, it just wouldnt get fixed. Why suffer the hassle when we could just get a haircut and wait til it grow again?
Yes, It would take time to grow it but life would be so much easier without the dead and dry hair, right?

Right, its definitely going to grow naman, sooner or later, healthier pa.

 In the case of relationships, yea, why wouldnt we just get rid of it? 
If were tired and we see that its not working out anymore then why not just let go and move on, take a breather. 
Why don't we save ourselves from the hassle of a stressful, toxic and tough relationships?
Do we not realize that we're just wasting our time?
Is it really worth saving?
Why dont we just let it go and suffer a one time big time heartache and move on with our lives and enjoy a peaceful and less stressful life?
Pain is temporary naman eh.
Sure, It would take a lot of getting used to but, we would all be fine eventually. 

Going back, just like the time we need to grow our hair, i guess, its same with the time we need to grow as a person. (everything takes time) its not gonna be easy but im pretty sure its worth it.
***Remember, it takes 2 grown-ups to make a relationship work.
If youre currently in a relationship and nothing seems right, think again, maybe the two of you needs to grow up first (baka lang naman, kung sobrang di na maayos talaga).****

to cut your long hair short  is  risky, scary, uncomfortable. we would always miss the way our long hair feels hanging back there and it wouldnt be the same again :( (but dont worry, hahaba din naman yan)


On the other hand, having short hair after a long time of maintaining long locks would make you feel light (?) idk, basta something like worry-free. i dont know. to each his own. that's my opinion, it feels light. like a ton of burden was taken from my shoulders. ayun.

this is something that I suddenly thought of because i was really bored. (and I was high when I wrote this)


-----long overdue post. i do not have the time to edit it so im just going to post it.
im just ranting, forgive me.

THANK YOU

to the person [or persons??] who gives my posts +1 (even though its just 1 per post) thanks for the support? lol

My thoughts on #ALDUB

One of my guilty pleasures lol.

To be honest, i dont really watch local TV. I don't really have time, plus I don't like most of the content of the drama series of both the leading TV stations in my country.
The teleseryes are way too dramatic for me. I mean hello, my life is already full of drama, i need something different to lift up my spirit! lol.

Dont get me wrong, I do watch TV shows! most of the time, i just download my favorite tv series every week and then watch everything once i get a hold of a free time. so total series and movie-marathon. lol (srsly, i suck at time management :D i dont even have the time to watch a movie in the cinemas lol ) and yes, the tv series that i watch are all from US.

Given the statement above, what made me get hooked to the so-called "kalye-serye" of the noon time show eat bulaga? uhhhmmm..
first of all, my parents' fave noon time show is eat bulaga so every lunch that's what i see on tv. lol. 
soooooo one time, while i was having lunch, of course, I saw the kalye-serye thingy. And I dont know why but I felt kilig (help me,  dont know the english term of kilig) when Alden Richards and Maine Mendoza aka yaya dub started dub-smash-ing love songs. And don't forget to add the side comments of the other hosts that makes the segment really funny and more entertaining. boom! kilig + tummy ache from too much laughing. It works eh. 
I'm not really a fan of bandwagon stuff loitering around the internet but its really super funny and nakakakilig talaga. 
It makes my stress go away from my morning study routine everyday. 
Its like my "half-time break" during the day.
I feel like my system releases endorphins and dopamine and serotonin and other chemicals that relieve would make my body cope up with the daily stress that I feel (no cortisol release! lol).
I feel energized after watching the segment to study again after lunch - instead of sleeping.

So yeah, to each his own.

some of you may say "Jologs" "baduy" "corny" or whatever but it won't stop us who're entertained by the "accidental-love-team".

but yeah maybe its really baduy and corny, but what can I do? it captured my heart (LOL)
maybe because I dont really have anyone or someone to give me the "kilig" or the butterflies that I need, that's why im hooked to it? it's like a secondary source of kilig since i dont have that "primary" source lol. 

anyway, i need to sleep. i just feel like, typing my thoughts on the rising love team #aldub

i used to party...a lot.

yup! but im over that phase of my life :D

im actually in the zoonneee.

i feel like i am at my best right now. ive never been happy and contented in my entire existence except now.

yes, i am single, ive less friends (uhm prolly most of them werent true friends) i am unemployed and i dont have my license to practice yet, basically, i am under construction. BUT...

I am happy. idk why. maybe because ive detached from a lot of unnecessary stuff that i cling on to.

i dont know, i am just happy. i am happy and i am working very hard to achieve my goals this year so wish me luck.

soooo, goodbye to that crazy girl in the photo up there :D she sure is having fun but that's not genuine happiness :) anyway, whateves.

abs? no?

they say you cannot serve two masters at the same time...
i have like two goals that i want to achieve this year: to pass the first phase of licensure exam and to be fit and have abs (90 day fitness program) BUUTTTT. i cannot split my effort and give 50% to each of them. so i have to sacrifice one...that is to have abs.
diba nga, one at a time. sooooooo since i lost weight already, im gonna cut down on the routines that i do everyday. from3 diff routines to just one *sad*but its okay, im cutting down on my carb intake naman, i  eat less rice na. Sometimes, none at all. (except today I ate a bunch of junk today, idk, my hormones are acting up, sorry!

fine, tomorrow, i'll eat healthy again. :) :) :) promise. its just that i am ovulating that's why.. hormones. duh.

let me take a moment to remember my ultra long hair..

I used to have super long hair, but i decided to have it shorten a couple of months ago.
it wasnt an impulsive act. I actually thought about it for a month before I went to the salon.

BUT THEEEENNNN, as expected, like any other girl in this world who used to have a long hair and suddenly mustered courage to make it short....I regretted having it cut. sooo yeah. i miss my long hair super duper much to the nth level huhuhu :( :( :(

but then again, i should be thankful that my hair is growing fast :)

i guess its as long as my hair in the picture before this year ends (i hope soooo :D fingers crossed)

i realized.

Ive been using so much words.
"like"
"so"
"anyway"
blah blah blah
-_-

I Lost weight!

but of course, ive lost the fats the hard way.

hmmm. i dont have a "before" picture *sad* but i have my 39th day pic!:)
that's 39/90 days. i still have plenty of time to sculpt my abs :D 

i think i lost 2-3 inches na. yay!:)