hormones.

my hormones make me more praning and more stressed lol.
buti na lang my period's over na lol.

anyway, ignore my previous rant post. nakakatawa, obviously, im just stressing out. #adulting lang lol.
kasssiiii ewan ko ba.

Ive nothing to say.

I am turning into one of those people who actually has no life. HAHA.
But do I regret it? Nope.

Im better at being someone na work, bahay, sleep lang kesa yung super in the zone na lumabas ng lumabas.

Ive been working for 4 weeks na I may have adjusted ng konti pero feeling drained and all pa din everytime i get home.

anywaaaay, I'm losing weight!!! effortlessly hahaha, ang takaw ko pa nga eh. sabi na eh, maging active lang ulit lifestyle ko, di na hassle magpapayat. pag nagbawas ako ng rice ulet tapos nag green tea sht nako I may be able to achieve flat stomach again yay! tapos kahit ung mga circuit routine lang na I used to do before. starting tom, start nako :) yay!

I just realized that there's a thin line...

between life and death..

Ang dali lang palang mamatay. 

I knowwwwww, I'm so redundant na, paulit ulit na. I know all of you are like "yeah, i get it, you almost died, so? the hell I care"
wala.
Okay, wala ka naman dapat paki eh. I'm just happy, I'm still alive. dodged a bullet.
I was so close to not being able to make it today.

Yung tipong pinabayaan ko or tinulog ko na lang what I was feeling last night, hindi na ko nagising hehe. And that would be a stupid thing to happen kasi I mean, I kind of have an Idea what was happening to me last night. Kahit hindi ako physician, napagaralan ko naman yun kaso lang
At first I was kind of in denial. Kasi In my entire existense, I never had an allergic reaction to any food I eat. kahit na sobrang lansa pa yan kahit na nung nagstay ako sa province ng mom ko, I was eating seafood every freaking day and I my body never had that kind of response.
Kaya kagabi, I was hesitant to drink an antihistamine. so nagisip pa ako, i observed myself for quite sometime kasi hindi ako nagrarashes eh.
I was just turning red. My whole body. it started sa face ko pababa ng lower extremities.

blah blah blah blah blah. fast forward, I was rushed to the hospital had shots and then boom, I felt better and alive. I cried thought, sakit kasi ng injection hinukay nya at first ung ugat ko na nakapasok ung needle. duddddeee. sobrang sakit. tapos naghanap na sya ng ibang vein, sa iba na lang sya na vein nagturok huhu. ouchieee to the next level. umiyak tlaga ako. hehe. arte no.

my parents were the ones who were worried af.
my dad was like, hindi mo pa nga naenjoy ung pinaghirapan mo tapos muntik ka na mamatay.
ang saya saya mo kelan lang tapos mamamatay ka.

papa and mama were all getting emo kasi nga parang kakapsa ko pa lang ng boards. im just getting started tapos mamamatay na ako. pero guys buhay pa ako.

atsaka napagalitan kasi dad ko. nagsabi ako na magtext sa tita ko(sister nya) na physician and ask her if may first aid or whatever. Pinagalitan sya haha, sabi ng tita ko "ano pa ginagawa nyo dyan itakbo nyo na sa ER. mamamatay yan" hehehe.

beastmode magdrive si papa and Im thankful may sobrang lapit na hospital samin kahit di maganda ung service okay lang, binuhay nila ako eh hehe.


my bugbog hands from IV injections.

GYM PLEASE :(((

I wont lie, its been like forever since the last time ive worked my ass out. :(

idk what happened, before, sobrang passionate ako about working out tapos yung benefits that I get from working out, specially neurogenesis (hehehe) tapos ngayon meeeh. walang future. tapos ang lakas ko pa sa rice lately. wala na talagang future. huhuhu. :(((

san ba ako kukuha ng drive to workout again? nakakatamad kasiiiiii.
after work kasi, i can't. :( I just can't huhu TT

yung quads ko tunaw na tunaw na, pati gastrocnemeus pati triceps and traps. whew.
isang araw lang na sipagin ako, surity, babalik na ako sa dating G na G magworkout LOL.

I knew it!

When I was still a student I would always tell myself na, I would never ever get an ortho preceptorship after passing the boards. I hate ortho. The undergrad ortho. as in, i don't like studying ortho. siguro kasi nagstart nung basic pa lang, hindi ko na talaga sya na gets. i won't blame my prof though. hmmmmm medjo siguro mga 10% na ayaw ko sa ortho is because of my prof sa ortho 1. hehehe sorry po :D

I just don't like it. hindi ko ma gets at ayokong aralin. hindi ako interesado eh. unlike sa pharma hehehe (it shows naman kahit sa scores ko sa theo phase hehe) sobrang interested ako pati sa patho and anatomy (which leads me back to...sana nagmed talaga ako--this is a diff story though ). anyway, so ayun nga, dont get me wrong, I like cosmetic/aesthetic dentistry. as in. I also like fixed partial dentures pero I dont like ortho talaga :(

*shet sobrang incoherent ko na naman, pasikot sikot ulit ako wait ulet*

so ayun nga, kung ano yung ayaw ko dun pa ako napunta hehehe.
yun pa yung una kong itetake na preceptorship.
To be honest, ayoko talaga eh.

but when I passed the boards I realized na its time to get out of my comfort zone.
its time to learn and experience something na I hate doing. plus ortho post grad, is soooo different dun sa inaral ko sa school. so hopefully, Id be able to love this branch of dentistry din.

I mean, hindi naman talaga ako passionate sa ngipin, im more interested in exploring the human body. yung mga pasikot sikot about the different systems pero siguro, i'm really destined to be here.
medicine will always be my life's "the one that got away" pero it doesnt mean na i wouldnt try my best to be successful and do well with the profession that I practice right now.

So ayun, wala lang. totoo nga ung sinabi ng sister ko na kung ano ung pinakaaway ko sa dentistry, dun ako mapupunta. pero this is just the beginning, id still practice on my own soon. well not so soon pero in time.

i have so much on my plate right now kaya stop muna ako sa future plans. siguro i'll just enjoy what I have right now. ayun.


PS, I love it pag natutuwa yung patients ko sa kadaldalan ko. kasi IRL hindi naman ako madaldal talaga lalo na pag first time natin magmeet. Idk, kung paano lumalabas kadaldalan ko pag may patient. hehehe. siguro, dala ng pangangailangan na magustuhan nila ako. lelz.
 

So not in the mood today

I feel so grumpy -_-

tagaaal.

joke papakabratty na naman ako :D waiting for my parents, ihahatid daw nila ako, yey!!! hahaha. tamad ko.
#babygirlproblems ##bilinaakopepperspray #agaaga #paranoidmom #walakasiakoboypren

Wow, Feb na agad :o

So, Ive been busy prepping for my oath taking (jan 29, 2016) and with work.
Sympre, Ive been making asikaso of stuff na i have to pass, requirements, you knooow, adult stuff hehe.

Anyway, hindi pa ako nakaadjust sa work load and change in lifestyle (from chillin lang to hustlin and bustlin) so yeah. Everything happened so fast eh, parang kelan lang i've passed the theo phase tapos biglang pracs na tapos biglang passed na ako both tapos work na and stuff. waaaaah.

I can barely keep up with the changes pero okay lang, makakaadjust din.

Work is hard pero fun since i have my friends with me. kung wala siguro sila, super seryoso ko lang.
anyway, alis daw kami ni mama, have to prep na. Finally medj nalinis ko na rin room ko naalis ko na (after 10 years) yung mga flashcards na nilagay ko all over my wall (literally :))))