I am beyond Blessed. :)

Thank you Lord for saving me. 
No amount of achievements and expensive material things would compare to what you have blessed me with.
Nothing compares to those blessings God. 
Thank you for the second chance. For having the time, to correct the mistakes that i've done. 
Thank you for letting me become who I am right now.
Leaving the dark path that i used to walk to wasnt easy. But knowing that You are walking with me towards the light made the journey bearable.
Thank you God. Thank you for turning this year into my best year. I thought it could be one of the worst. But like always, you proved me wrong.
Thank you Lord, thank you for making me believe again and for accepting me always.

Please, never let me leave your side again.
I love you and I offer everything to you. 

 You saved me Lord. You asked to come back to you. You accepted the worst version of myself and You let me be in your arms again. You helped me become better and healed me.

Thank you for the unconditional love and for giving me the most supportive and loving parents any kid could ask for...

 

oops. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

#KAGULOST

(edit: whoever said that going to the malls around this date would be a good idea? UGH.)

Sneaky Mirror Shot @ Boon Tong Kee (UPTC

What’s up with me? HAHAHA.

I have been reaalllyyyy, reaaaalllyyy busy lately, I’m terribly sorry (like, anybody care lol)

Anyway, I have been stressing so much about the practicals (last phase of my licensure exam). Becaaaauseee… ugh. No comment(Srsly though, No time to practice. busy lahat. hassle. di ko pa nameet patient ko. Di pa ko marunong mag wax pattern. Feeling ko behind na ako. My anxiety is killing me) .

I did not enroll in a review class because it’s way too expensive. 13k for four days? The eff! My review/tutorial classes for the theoretical phase is cheaper pa nga. Kaloka. I won't make my parents spend that much. Yung application fee pa lang and materials and bayad sa patient i think would cost me around 20k na tapos review pa for 13k? eeeh. no way. Ang laki na ng expenses ng parents ko for me. I can't ask for that much na. kasi hello, I shouldnt be depending on them na nga eh. 

Anyhoo,

I am so freaking tired. 

This morning, I went out with papa and kuya nel to buy stuff.(hanggang afternoon)

Papa asked me if I needed to buy anything, I said I’m good, I don’t need anything. He even asked me if I want that wallet from Herschel. I do like it but I don’t need it. (yup, nagbago na talaga ako haha)

So here’s a funny story. During lunch with pa and kuya nel, sabi ni papa, kuya nel and I should go ahead na if we want to go home na. okay lang daw if iwan na namin sya. Hmmmm. My brother and I gave each other the “look” (FYI: papa used to have a girlfriend. I’m not sure though if theyre still together. Pero obviously, we don’t trust him anymore).

According to him, he’s going to meet up with his cousin ( tito Junior). Ayun, nawala na kami sa mood ni kuya nel. We sort of think na he’s going to meet up with his Girlfriend/Ex GF. So sabi namin ni kuya nel, we'll wait for him na lang, magiikot ikot pa kami sa  mall.

Edi he left na, we waited for him na makalayo tapos hinanap namin sya ni kuya nel. My brother even asked me if I’m ready to see him with another girl. I told him idk, I’m not sure. Basta magpapakita tayo na nakita natin sila, if meron nga.

So ayun. We saw him at triple O’s BUT with our Tito nga. Tawa lang kami ng tawa ng brother ko. HAHAHA sobrang TH kami. Pero feel namin, he only met up with our tito kasi di kami pumayag na mauna na tsaka we’ll wait for him. Maybe the girl is asking for money. Siguro may secret kapatid kami sa labas. Omg. Di ako magagalit sa bata if meron but I’ll hate the mom for sure. My gosh. That bitch knows na my father has a family and yet dikit pa ng dikit.

Srsly, di ko alam. I bet my papa says na he’ll leave us for her. Pero asa ka girl. He won’t. He may not be in good terms with my mom all the time, but he cannot leave us, his kids. I don’t think so.

Bahala sya. I don’t think he’ll shame his self sa brothers and sister nya. Good luck with that.

ANYWAY, enough with the hattteeeee. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, paguwi sa bahay, samahan ko naman si mama sa mall. Ugggghh. KAPAGOD

Big difference: Shopping with papa = zero impulsive buying. Kung ano lang nasa shopping list, that’s it. Wala na extra

Shopping with mama= we have to stop at every shop na she see’s na feel niya may maganda. Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh sakit sa ulo. And nahilo ako with mama.

I have to pass out na.lol

Anyway, sige na. fine, I’ll just enjoy the holidays. After Christmas, fine, legit practice na.

Whew. Everybody’s putting their families first. Maybe I should too. I need to loosen up again.

This whole goal/achievement that ive been setting up for myself, made me the uptight person I used to be.  

Idk, like I have to do everything sa To do list ko. And yung exact time pa. Nakakastress eh pero what can I do about it. I’m better that way than the other person I’ve been. Yung walang paki. Ugh.

Whatever.

  

 #BoonTongKee #UPTC #ILoveUPTC #family #christmas

too blessed to be stressed.

BUT THERE'S SO MUCH STUFF DO BE STRESSED ABOUT :((((((((((


LORD HELP ME :(

I PASSED!!!!

I still can't believe I passed the theoretical phase of my licensure exam! A step closer to my dreams!! yey! This is my Christmas gift to my parents. this is probably my best gift to them :)


anywaaaay, prepping over the practical phase is such a pain in the ass huhu. God, last na to, help me please...

Under Construction.

I'm trying my best to fix my blog's layout and template and all, I swear.
It's just that, I am too distracted to focus on anything right now. I swear. (daig ko pa batang may ADHD) :)))
plus, my patience threshold is like super down sooo i've no time to restudy html again.
gosh, I used to love html but now, meeeehhh. no patience.


So please, bear with this crappy site for a bit. (not that a lot really care)


(ughhh, pati yung pwesto ng ads di ko pa ma fix. :( sorry, sorry.)

But I cannot deny.
There are times that loneliness gets into me.

That...
Sometimes...
I feel like I need someone...
That I cannot make it on my own.
That I need Someone I can turn to... to hold on to. a shoulder to cry on.
I need someone else to comfort me.
Yes, there are times...


BUT...
NOT..
Most of the time...
Soooooo


LET'S CELEBRATE THIS FREEDOM!!!

:)))))))))


I can feel that there is this little chance next year...
i might give in to someone.
Only if there is someone who's willing to love me. LOL
if n/a...

celebrate the singleness still!!! hahaha!




**************I wrote this a month ago pa, pms lang to. LOL

Lonely?

1.
i am having mixed emotions right now.
Seriously, i could not be left idle. I think about unimportant stuff a lot when i'm alone (which is 99.9% of the time).

2.
AND I FEEL SO LONELY :( or NOT?
i've been used to being alone but idk whyyyy nowwwwww... i thought of it more. maybe because i'm not doing anything.
wah. plus i barely hangout with my friends or anyone.

3.
i feel like i miss having someone but i know na hindi naman talaga.
i can't.
career muna plus i dont have time to spare for love.
may right time for that, and now isnt the best time to be in a relationship or to be entertaining anyone (not that I do have anyone to entertain)

4.
anyway, i'll sleep these thoughts away. goodnight.

Recap.

Last night, i watched One Fight night at Moa arena with my brother.
It was fun, it was better watching it live than on TV.

im too lazy to post anything. wah.

How To Get Away With Murder

Slept four am this morning because i finished the first season of how to get away with murder.

Then the moment i woke up 10am, I started watching season two. im about to finished the second season na until the mid season ender.

omg. waaaah, this series is making me sick to my mind, its a good distraction though. hahaha
 

Whatever the result is...I'm still thankful.

Im really anxious about the results of the exam, i may not post it on my social media accounts(except here in my blog, cuz this is more personal) like some but deep inside, i am really, really going crazy as fuck.

BUT, when my dad said "Kahit ano pa yan, andito lang naman ako, susuportahan kita"
OMG naiiyak na ako. throughout this whole journey, sobrang na feel ko support ng parents ko.
And i'm super thankful for that, I would admit that I havent been a very good daughter this whole year, in fact, late 2014 and early 2015 i've been busy ruining my life and being selfish. Ive been thinking about myself only. as in. i never thought of how or what they felt from what ive been doing with my life.
And even after all of those stuff that i did, they still love, support me, treat me like i'm still 16.

Theyre God's best gift ever. My parents.
I love them so much.
I want to make them proud for once. di naman sakit ng ulo yung dala ko sa kanila.



 

November favorites fail + A Second Chance

November faves: I promise to post the pictures tomorrow. :D

I was busy, My parents took me out for lunch to calm me down/ to lessen the pressure that I am feeling :D

I have got no chill lately. uggggh. how long must I wait?:(

anyway, I  watched a second chance alone,

It was okay. It's not good as in super nice, it wasn't that bad too.

I just think, its too dramatic. uhm, I don't think that it would happen in real life. I dunno, i'm not yet married so idk, if it really does happen to married people in real life.
maybe if i am in a relationship or if i am married, i wouldve relate to the movie. but whatever its not yay! its not nay! its fine.


I only cried during the first part, yung wedding. hehehe. I always cry whenever i attend weddings soooo, yeaaah. sobrang nakakaiyak kaya wedding lalo na yung exchange of vows.    

i did not like the first part din kasi yung one more chance.
Its too fictional.

maybe biased ako? i like open ended movies, yung di sigurado sa ending , yung realistic. yung ending na hindi ginawa para matuwa ung mga manunuod. yung ending na alam mong nangyayari sa totoong buhay, organic, totoo. basta yun.

Dear Me,

Chill. God's got this. :) Lagi naman eh :)

Yay!!!

finally, I found a cool background for this blog and it is so meeee..

disclaimer: i do not own the image, i found it on google (as usual)

there's always something about stars that I love.
I mean ever since high school, i am obsessed with. they're just so beautiful, right? anywaaaay.

I might post a blog about my november favorites.
kind of too lazy to take pictures of them so maybe tonight, i get enough energy and creative juices to take a few photos of my favorite stuff last month :)


*****************************************

BTW, i recommend you guys watch the movie, Sleeping with other people. It's super funny.
Also, (this is too late to recommend but still..) watch uhhhmmm two night stand? i forgot the title but its funny too.

that's all. i might be back later if i remember anything that I want to tell you guys (whatever)

regrets?

Dear Mr. B.S. (HAHAHA)

hindi mo na ba ako kukulitin ulit ever? ready na ako. HAHAHAHA.

I'm just kidding. :))

I just have so much time to overthink.
And, I was just wondering, what if I gave him a chance.
what if I agreed to go out with him and get to know him better and start fresh (sabi nya, start fresh daw eh).

Pero, asa naman na he'd talk to me ever again.
Obviously, egoistic sya and i guess he went out of his way din.
kaso lang di talaga eeeeh.

Don't get me wrong hindi ako nanghihinayang. There could be no better response than what I told him.
I took the high road.

yup, tama lang ginawa ko.


I'm just trying to distract myself that's why kung anu ano na lang iniisip ko para di ko maisip yung dapat na iniisip ko. hahahahaha. omg hahahaha.
kthanksbye.

The Interestings by Meg Wolitzer

well yeah, but too lazy to put up something with sense here.
I have just been sleeping a lot lately.

Went out yesterday to chill out with my brother and his girlfriend.
Yup, i am such a pro at third wheeling i wont lie. lol.
I do third wheel a lot and apparently, it doesnt bother me at all. anyway,
I am currently reading the interestings by Meg Wolitzer.
It's funny i have just finished the first chapter. Maybe i'll do a review after ive finished the book :)

convo with a friend yesterday.

HAHAHA because I am being such a baby and I needed my parents to bring something to me during my preboards/Q and A review yesterday :))) (i wouldnt tell you what they brought me, hahahahah long story hahahahahaha)

I had a convo with my friend.

Me: Sh*t Bryan na******** yung ******* OMG hahahah hassle
Bryan: mamaya mo na isipin yan, padeliver na lang tayo, para di ka na maglakad mamaya.
Me: OMG

So i texted my dad, i told him what happened blah blah blah so basically, they brought me the one thing that I needed so bad yesterday in order to function LOL

Me: de, okay na, dadalhin na lang daw nila
Bry: sweet naman ng dad mo
me: hahaha. onga lol
bry: okay na kayo?
me: ahhh oo, napatawad ko na sya.
bry: buti naman
me: behave naman na sya eh kinalimutan na namin yon.


LOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I regret..

...Not writing my thoughts for a long time in this blog.

It's just that i've been really busy.
And now that I'm stressed and I need to take a breather, i will type. LOL.

anyway, i dont really have anything say. I'm just bored, stressed and pressured.

God, Help me.

BAKIT DI NA LANG MAGING THANKFUL?

hindi tayo thankful sa kung anong meron tayo
hindi natin nakikita yung meron tayo na wala yung iba.
hindi kasi tayo nakukuntento sa kung ano man yung meron natin.
hindi kasi natin nakikita yung mga nasa likod natin.
masyado tayong caught up sa pag habol sa mga tao na nauuna satin.
hindi na natin naaappreciate mga munting bagay na meron tayo.

alam mo ba na hindi lahat ng tao magigising pa bukas?
alam mo ba na hindi lahat ng tao sa susunod na mga segundo makakahinga pa?
alam mo ba na may mga tao kahit isang butil ng kanin hindi man lang nila matikman?

tapos ikaw, ano?
nagrereklamo ka kasi ayaw ka payagan ng magulang mo pumunta sa kung ano mang hip and happening.
Eh kung yung iba nga walang magulang na magguide sa kanila sa kung ano ang tama at mali eh. Ikaw inis na inis ka sa magulang mo.

nagrereklamo ka kasi hindi ka makaipon ng pambili ng iphone 6+ o kaya naman ayaw ka bigyan ng magulang mo ng pambili?
eh kung yung iba nga kahit simpleng cellphone wala sila eh, walang pangaral, walang pangkain etc.

nagrereklamo ka kasi hindi ka makasakay ng jeep pauwi at ang haba ng nilakad mo?
eh yung iba nga walang trabaho na papasukan eh. yung iba nga hindi makalakad kasi wala silang paa. hindi makalakad kasi wala silang mata para makakita sila.


Diba? bakit puro na lang tayo reklamo sa buhay?
hindi ba pwede na kahit isang saglit lang maglaan tayo ng oras para magpasalamat sa kung ano man meron tayo?

sa tingin ko kasi, yung sobrang gusto natin na mapunta sa taas, wala na tayong paki kung sinong tao yung matatapakan natin, yun ang nakakasira satin.

hay. naisip ko lang.
Pag nakakafrustrate at nakakastress na kasi ang buhay.
mas okay na magisip lang ng saglit at iappreciate mga bagay na meron tayo. nakakagaan kasi ng loob kahit papano.
hindi yung puro na lang tayo reklamo.

Busy.

I guess I won't be posting anything until december 5th! :)
I promise after december 4, I'll be posting good content.

anyway, quick recap about what happened yesterday.

Went to mendiola (manila) to meet up with my guy bestfriends. They've been asking for my notes for more than a month already. I just didn't have the time before. I've been busy with a lot of things.

anyway, so we kind of did a Q & A then the rest of the time we were together we just catch up on stuff ( I havent seen them for months) aaaannddd talked about life.

So much shocking revelations but I wouldn't go into details. I just feel sorry for my friend E.
Shit happens. Shit happened.
Oh well,Life goes on.

PS,
I used to think I already ruined my life by becoming a party girl and all but idk.
I don't think just because you did bad stuff or had vices it doesnt mean youre a bad person na.

Some people, leave you kasi they think na youre bad for them, na bad influence ka.
ewan. idk. i dont want to judge people still even if pwede mo nang pagisipan lahat ng masama eh. oh well.
wtvr.

Life has its ups and downs :)

I don't know, I just want to say that, whatever you're going through right now, you will get over it.
You will get past it. soon it will be over.
It'll teach you a lesson and you will become a better person.

Everything that we go through, it's probably us, that may have caused it (be it good or bad).
Everything is just a phase.
Nothing is meant to last forever....

Even us, we will all die eventually.

anyway, i've been going through tough times lately.

hahaha, God really has his own way of talking to us.
oh well, basta.

Let's appreciate the little things :)



 

In life..

We do not have an undo button.
We cannot just erase and redo whatever mistake we've already done.
It isn't a game that, whenever we die or commit a mistake we can repeat the same exact task all over again, die and be alive again because we have a "save point"
which leads me to...

In life, we do not have a "save point".
How I wish we have one.
I mean, wouldn't it be super easy when you can just die and repeat everything & go back to your save point?
OMG, id be totally be down for that lol. but life isn't an rpg game.we cant just die and relive everything  and do stuff perfectly with the help of a "walkthrough"...which leads me again to...

In life, we do not have a walkthrough. I think the best walkthrough that we can have are experiences.
We don't have an exact or precise tasks that we have to do (?) in order to achieve our task or goal... (you know, like in an rpg , you have to do certain stuff to open a door or get a clue or whatever, hope you get me)

Maybe because, we're made that way. We're supposed to learn everything on our own through our experiences. We do not have an undo button because, what is life if we dont make mistakes? i mean, are we going to learn if we do everything perfeclty all the time?
how are we going to realize stuff if we do everything perfectly,right?

we don't have a save point but if we encounter the same exact problem, we already know what to do.

And I guess we do not have a walkthrough because, our parents, friends and ourselves will be our lives walkthrough.

sometimes, you just gotta accept what life gives you and make the best out of it.

(i just wanted to add a photo of my fave rpg hehehe since, RPG's my inspiration in this blog update hehe)

wasted 5 hours of my day :(

What happened today:

LRT BEEP CARD (FAIL)
I havent ridden the lrt for like idk 6 months? 5 months? and they changed the ticketing system.
So i'm new to this beep card thingy.
I bought a single journey since i'm just trying it out and I srsly have no idea how it works :S

1) Placed a hundred bill on the machine and the machine gave me 80 pesos (all coins, 16 pcs of 5 peso coinsssss)
2) when i'm about to go out, i didnt know i have to insert the card on the system (i'm like so stupid i caused line traffic hihi. good thing I saw the kid beside me HAHAHA A KID!!! hahaha)


PRC FAIL!!
1) Went all the way to manila to prc for nothing
2) When I got there, I had my stuff photocopied
3) bought the envelope and stamp
4)entered a different building
5) asked kuya guard where i should do the online application thingy
6) went to the third flr no one was there all the computers were off.
7) asked employees where to do the online application and they showed me the pc (wala ngang open)
8) I got pissed and left, i thought i had to do the application at home

*i do not have load to text my friends, i cannot reload, globe's system was down. fcksht. auspiscious day? really? (went online to check my auspiscious day. feng shui thingy, but I guess not?)
*why am I still on pre paid? really? ugh (but i dont really text anyone, srsly as in. i dont text anyone, theres no need to. except during occasions like thissss. aaahhh!!!

when I got home i called my friend using our landline and voila! she told that i should be the one to open the computerss. self service pala. hahaa! idk!! i tried opening the CPUsss but its aint working bruh!

and theeeeen. everything's in 4th flr pala, i was on the third flr (kasi that's where kuya guard told me to go) eh after the online thingy i have to go up the 4th flr. my gosh. im so stupid. but wtvr.

it's my stupidity and impatience that wasted this day. oh well.
i'll go back tomorrow with my friendssss.


(my gosh, i thought i can do everything on my own na, oh well, maybe i havent been out for a long time kaya my skills went down din. lol)  

WELL I GUESS I'M BACK ON THE TRACK :)

after that dramatic and semi suicidal blog update, i'm back on the track.
clearly i just needed to think things over (whut?)

my whole body is shaking becuzzz i just went hord with my workout lol

looky, looky :D

post workout photo (is there a need?) HAHAHA

Oh my gosh, i'm dyinggg aiiiirrrrrr :))))))))))))))))

disclaimer: i dont own the first 3 photos, i found them on google :)

here we go again. haha.

idk, i said im going to take a break from posting blog updates over and over againnnn. pero lagi pa din naman ako nagpopost.
anyway, sige, I will be posting relevant events in my life muna.
tsaka na yung mga reviews ng food, events and places. I literally have no time pa for that.
hmmmm.
omg, i havent smoked for like almost a month na (again) and its not even pilit. i'm just too lazy to smoke hehehe, i mean to make a way to smoke (?) i cant just smoke in the balcony . i'm not a legal smoker (what? is there such a thing?) i'm mumbling random words again. coherence = zerrrroooo.

I feel like its so much easier to vlog because, no one will notice your grammatical errors. i mean like its not so obvious ha ha ha.
anyyyy wayyyy omg there shouldnt be a space there. again, anywayyyyyy, im going to poop now. byeeeee HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAHAHAH

Oh, PMS.

I feel better na. Checked my calendar, track my period. haha. oops.
I was PMSing that's why I felt that way last night.
urgh hormones :( :( :(

anywaaaaaay. whatevs.
have so many things to catch up with.

TRUTH IS...

I am weak :(

It may seem like i am a strong person.
that I can handle tough situations on my own.
that after all of the hard times that i've been through,
It may seem that I am fine going through all of this alone.
That I can stand still, joke around my siblings and make them laugh,
That I am fine even if I do not show myself to my friends.
That I can still go on.

Truth is I can't.

I have been fighting this evil thought of giving up.
I have been doing my best not to break down, to continue pushing, and  inspire others to go on and do their best to fight their own battles.
that in the end, there is a light. there is hope.

that in the end, every hard work and every battle fought is worth it.

my friend, it is true. but tough times like this, when depression sets in.
I can't handle my own thoughts.
I can't keep pushing.

I feel like it's not enough.  I am not enough, to convince myself that I can do it. that I can do this.
for months I did. I've been very successful at telling myself that I can.
I know I can.
but this negative thought is eating.
the pressure is eating me.

I have no one to tell this to. because i have to show them that im strong, that i can.
but deep inside... I don't know.

I hope that when I wake up tomorrow, i'll be better.
i hope this feeling would go away.
I hope that the motivation that ive saved up would go back.

Please God, tell me i'm not alone...

I'm Tired.

Sometimes, you cant make it on your own...

But what can I do?




i need to keep pushing.



siguro nga, i just need to take a breather.


(masyadong nasisira ng pressure yung diskarte ko)

before naman i wasn't pushing myself too hard and I'm like retaining everything that I read...

When I set this deadline na i should finish everything at this date tapos I should start answering MCQs nawala diskarte ko.

clearly, i shouldnt be talking to anyone muna.
more pressure

sira diskarte.

ugh. today,  i will rest.

MMFF movie date.

OMG. I'm like so stoked (just kidding)
HAHAHA. Papa said if i passed the boards, he'll treat me to a movie date with him and mama, we'll watch my bebe love, the alden richards x maine mendoza(yaya dub) movie :))))

my gosh, srsly pa. thanks, its the thought that counts pero nakakaloka kaaaa

#Halloween #Costumeparty #mytop10horrormovies

My old self would be like "how I wish I can go to a halloween party somewhere and wear this hot nurse or hot dentist costume."

The current me is "WTF, let me sleep scary movies"

Seriously! i've been watching so much horror movies that i am super having a hard time sleeping :(
I can't sleep. :(
I go to bed 10pm, I sleep 1am or 2am :(

what is happeninggggg.
Anywayyyyy, let me spread the spook and give you a list of horror movies to watch this weekend! :)

1) The ring (Japanese Version)
of course, nothing beats this movie. i mean it set up the standards for all the asian horror movies haha.
if its not as scary as this movie, blah, its corny.

2) Shutter
OMG, if there's anything that I consider to be like better than the ring, this is it. I mean GOD, when I was
doing my endodontic therapy case in school, and I go to the dark room to develop the x-ray, I kept on imagining the girl from the dark room when the guy protagonist in the movie was developing photos in the dark room. HAHAHAHA you know what they say, if youre creative youre more of a chicken hahaha.

3) The Grudge
well, hmmm. this is scary but I don't really like the story but if youre looking for somewthing to scare you, this is it!

4) The Orphanage.(El Orphanato)
this is a spanish film. i like the story, i like the plot and the twist so much.it's scary and intersting at the same time.

5)The Woman in black
Not only that Daniel Radcliffe is in this movie, it also gave me goosebumps. As in, like omggggg.
one of the best american horror films.

6) The Awakening
this is a british film. It reminds me so much of the orphanage.
I also like the plot and the twist in the end.
if you like horror movies that gives you a fright and interesting at the same time, go watch this and the orphanage.

7) 4bia
thai film that gives you the creeeeeps. and i mean it!!!
what I like about this 4-story film is that there is a horror-comedy part. i love it

8) Alone
Thai horror film also, Can I just take a moment to say that Thailand has good horror movies?? omg, this is a good movie too! the twist in the end, I never expected it :D

9)The wishing stairs
Finally, A korean horror film in my list! hahaha
OMG, this movie is scary and grueling(?) at the same time. It's bloody and scary at the same time.
if you want to pull an all nighter, better watch this movie. lol, just kidding

10)The Phone
ooooh. I like investigative and horror films at the same time.
it's like youre interested to know the back story behind the apparition (well, the same for all horror movies)
but dude, this is really scarrrryyyyyy.

I've like tons of fave horror movies that i've seen, i think I've seen almost all of  the best asian horror films already but these are my top 10 :)


#asianhorror #toptenhorror #horror #freakyish

Writer's block.

Lol. as if i'm a writer. haha.
I can't think of anything to write about today.
I am so tired.
wah.
i ate too much.
haha.
wtf.
i'll be back later.
lol.
k
thanks
bye.

Study Break!

"#"=2008 answer 
">"=2015 answer

1. Why did you stop liking the last person you liked?
# i did not.

>I got over him

2. Are you usually the heart breaker or the heart broken?
# The Heart Broken one.

>heart broken one

 3. What was the last thing you put in your pocket?
# hanky :D

> i dont have a pocket right now
 
4. Name a quote from the song you are listening to:
# "hindi mo lang alam akoy iyong nasaktan" -- oo(up dharma down)

>Stupid me, i don't know how to slow down. Stupid me, Magic

5. How is life going for you right now?
# Dead lock and stuck.

>fine.

6. Are you keeping a secret from someone who needs to know the truth?
# yes.

>not really.

7. Who was the last person to comment you?
# jitter

>comment me? where?

8. Regret(s)? name some of them?
# This person. That thing. This occasion. That event.

>so over regretting stuff.

10. What was the first thing you said when you woke up today?
# "wala po kaming pasok.gusto ko pa matulog" amp. :))

>thank you God i feel better na.

11. Do you have a best friend?
# i do.

>yassss.

12. Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?
# apparently sooo. :))

> i guess so.

14. Do you own a pair of green pants?
# nah :)

>nada

15. Any crush?
# MANY.

>yep.

16. Do you believe that what comes around goes around?
# yes.

> i believe that everything that we do has a consequence, good or bad.

17. What is your favorite fruit?
# Strawberries, grapes, oranges, apples and mangoes

>uhhrangeeeee and pineapple


18. What is the last song to make you cry?
# HAHA. without you-- charlie wilson:D

> Everything, Life house

19. Is your best friend pretty?
# yes :)

>very, Shoutout to my bff jo christ!:))
 
20. Have you ever passed out?
# :DD :)) LOL

>yea, alota times

21. Do you trust people easily?
# sometimes. stupid me.

>used to.

22. When was the last time you puked?
# that, i cannot remember.

> last sunday?

23. What's the thing that always gets you through the day?
# Tomorrow will be better than today:)

>food hahaha

24. Who do you miss?
# Won't tell.

>friends, alota people, really.

25. Do you give out second chances too easily?
# it depends ;]

>depende.

26. What are you doing this school days?
# Sheet papers. Projects. Long Tests. ugh.

>i graduated already hehe.

27. Where is one place you want to visit?
# France.

>LA

28. Do you like hugs or do you freak when people hug you?
# I like hugs.ü

>it depends on who's going to hug me lol.
 
29. Had plans and broke them?
# Do that every minute everyday.

>all the time

30. Do you eat steak?
# yes.

> i do, do you?

31. How are you feeling?
# Isolated. *emo*

>tired but i need to keep pushing.

32. Are you a lover or hater?
# somewhere between the two.

>lover
 
33. What was the last movie you watched?
# twilight.ugh.

>screen at katmanchod(?)

34. What comes into mind when I say, Firenzeee the chimpanzee is on fire?
# Primate evolution. 

>frenzy the condom

35.What are you listening to right now?
# Just Friends - Gavin Degraw

>krookrookroo

Please forgive me...

If I commit typographical errors and grammatical errors.
most of the time, i don't get to re-read stuff that i post, so yeah, I apologize if you come across errors.

*plus I am not a writer:
 I don't have a special way of writing i mean like using deep words or ldiomatic expressions or whatever that could make my posts artist-ish (? i dont know what i'm saying). you get what I mean.

*I lack coherence:
I knoooow, most of the time I just type whatever comes into my mind. I don't get to follow the P.R.E.P. rule.
hahaha (Point, Reason, Example, Point)

I don't really have that much time.
whatever i write here, it's anything that i randomly thought of or i just want to share to you guys.
it's whatever i can think of that i can squeeze in, in my free time.

soooo sorrrryyyyyyyyy.

FITNESS 101

I'll put down  lists of routines that I do everyday (I make sure to have 2 days of rest every week though)
I don't follow a special diet because I need my brain to function well (lol, well, in my case, i feel like i get brain fog whenever i cut down on my daily calorie intake. but if it you can cut your daily calorie intake, it would be better, but don't forget to feed your muscles, PROTEIN!!!)
 anyway..

I found everything on the internet :)

40 jumping jacks
10 push ups
10 tricep dips
10 squats
10 side lunges
40 russian twists

(repeat 3 times)

Sexy leg workout (found this here)
20 squats
30 lunges
40 calf raises
50-second wall squat
100 jumping jacks
50-second wall squat
40 sumo squats
30 leg raises
20 squats

Arms!
1 minutes jumping jacks
20 tricep dips
1 min plank
10 diamond push ups
(repeat 3x)

cardio

:20 squat jumps
:10march
(repeat)
:20 mountain climbers
:10 march
(repeat)
:20 burpees
:10 march
(repeat)
:20 jump lunges
:10 march
(repeat)
:30 march
(repeat)

(repeat 2x)
(: means seconds)

Circuit
40 jumping jacks
15 kneeling push ups
15 squats
15 bic crunches
15 burpees
15 chair dips
:60 plank
20 lunges
15 butt kicks
(repeat 2x)

Bruce lee abs (found this on fb)
20 russian twists
20 leg raises
20 crunches
20 heel touches
20 modified Vs
20 hundreds
(3x)

***(i made this up)
1 min burpees
1 min vertical jumps
1 min jog in place
1 min vertical jumps
1 min squats
1 min skater jumps
1 min vertical jumps
1 min jumping jacks
1 min push ups
1 min butt kicks


I dont do all of it everyday, i make at least 3 of those routines plus i change everyday. :D
sooo yea. whatever.

#gains #fitness #fitspiration #healthylifestyle

#TBT!

I almost forgot, it's time for my #THROWBACKTHURSDAY post :D

i'll start with my Pre-Dentistry1-2 and  DMD 1-4 days :D in short, college days!:)

missing these guyssss 

DMD2D class pic

Community dentistry CVAC

that's me with our chief of clinics when I finished all my requirements! (i know i'm fat, im stressing out that time, too much cortisol lol)

i know i'm thin :))) second year dentistry proper days so thin haha!

Hospital dentistry class pic with our hospital mentors and our hospital dent adviser. 

my last section in dental school DMD 4AA

Whoops, Maui's 18th. Fresh out of high school :)))

2nd year dental proper with poker friends! (that's what we call our trio)

with my pre-dent bestie :( She's in california nowww. hope to visit her soon! miss you hershey!

PS, I look so weird and funny before, i know right. you're allowed to laugh hahahah:D 

#tbt #throwbackthursday #collegedays #dentalschool #dentistrylife #dentalstudent #stuDENT

Underrated White beach down Luzon.

Long overdue post about this underrated white beach near my mom's hometown in Masbate.
Had a vacation there a couple of months ago mainly because I needed to do some soul searching. ANYYYYY, mom's friends brought me to this paradise.
it's a legit white beach. as in the sand is boracay quality. But the place is quiet and peaceful.
It's still a virgin. (LOL) you know what I mean, it's not that commercialized yet. it's hasn't been discovered yet by the social media people :D

well, everything is cheaper if you want to experience white beach and some quiet time with friends. I think you can do camping there. yeah?

advice: do not go there during summer time because it's crowded with the locals of masbate.

Some of the pictures that I took :)

I find the sand patterns cute lol

let's go to the beach-each.

I'm on the sand bar when I took this 

it was kind of raining that day

found this cute coral by the shore. there's so much shells and small corals like this scattered on the shore.

Hope you guys, find the time to visit this resort. 

The nicest and most developed resort there is Paraiso de Palani beach villas!

I haven't been there because we stayed in a different resort but and we only stayed for a day, if you want to stay overnight, I recommend you stay at Paraiso de Palani. i'm going to put their fb page's link here and tripadvisor review link too. The resort is located at Balud, Masbate :)

PARAISO DE PALANI FB

TRIPADVISOR REVIEW  

PS, this isn't a paid advertisement or whatever. I'm just sharing my experience. :) 

   

Love–Hate Relationship with Nicotine

So, You guys know that I have been smoking for like more than a year already. There are times that I would stop and then when I feel stressed and all, I would smoke again.
Right now, i haven't smoked for more than a week already. (just so you know, I used to be a chainsmoker) and when I do smoke, I can't even finish a single stick (how did this happen?)
Want to know my secret on how I am still alive and surviving without that added nicotine in my body? I have tips for you my friend :)

***Tip: before you do this, you must have already convinced yourself that you dont want to smoke already. That you want to have a healthy lifestyle. That you want this because you want to live longer and that you love yourself that's why you want to make this change. I mean, Everything starts within you. It wouldn't be that hard, if you are willing to do this.


1) Gradually.
I didn't just stop suddenly. I started with like 1 stick per day or I only smoke when I go out. And then 2 sticks per week to 1 stick per week to 2 sticks every month up to just 1 stick per month. You can also find a replacement like, candy or lollipops, instead of smoking a stick.

2) Educate yourself.
Since I am in the medical field, I am not foreign to the diseases that we can get from smoking. Plus I am a soon to be licensed dentist, so i am very much aware of the effects that nicotine and smoking in the oral cavity. For you guys, who doesn't have a bit or much of an idea to what smoking can do to you. Google it! I mean, everything now is almost in google sooooo yup, just type bad effects of smoking. i know you guys have the slightest idea on the bad effects of smoking, but additional info can maybe scare you more.

3) WORKOUT!!!
even if its just brisk walking for an hour or jogging for 30 minutes.
Even if its not a High Intensity workout routine as long as you make your heart work more and your lungs and muscle too, everyday, it can be of great help! tiny steps.
I started doing aerobics for 3 weeks and then when I started to feel like I can do more,
 I shifted to doing Circuit trainings and High intensity workout. uhm. you can follow a lot of workout and exercise channels in youtube. that's what I did. If youre lazy to go to the gym or you dont have much time to spend to go the gym and you'd rather stay at home or whatever you can always find workouts in youtube.
less time, and you dont have to pay additional gym charges lol. Just normal electricty and internet connection bills lol

4) Keep yourself busy.
I used to smoke a lot before when I'm bored. so I kept myself busy to shrug off the idea of smoking.
uhm yeah, i dont know about you guys but whenever the urge of smoking, comes to you, just remember why you even started this journey of stoping. I mean, look how much youve gained already from removing that vice. why do something and restart all over. right?


That is all for me.
There will be withdrawals, its not going to be an easy journey but just always remember that you can do it!
Just push and push and push. :)
But again, first, dont do this if you're just half hearted. Do this whole heartedly and you should be really motivated. if not, come read this again when you're ready :)

(most recent answer is after ">" old answer is the first 1 (taken from old blog 2008) 

FRIENDSHIP

1. If you only had 1 friend left, who would it be?

!? idk :|

>it's hard to choose :( Jo christ. abs or jo christ. 

2. Who among your acquaintances would you like to know better?

!? uhh. all of them :) haha. ambisyosa :))

>idk, madami masyado. can't really choose. 

3. Which of your friends to you consider the closest to you?

!? Joan.Arian.Nicca.Jo Christ.Marvie.JE.Ashtees.Yinyang and the list goes on.

>Jo christ, abs and jewel

4. Let's say you died, who among your lucky friends will get your stuff?

!? Arian. :)

>idk? prolly my bff: jo christ. kasi sentimental?

LOVE

1. If there was one person next to you right now, who would it be?

!? Mommy 2. I seriously NEED her right now 

> Mommy 2. always need her.

2. If you could do something really really romantic for someone you like/love, what would it be?

uhh. idk. take care of that person when that person is sick? is that romantic?

>  wine and movie night under the stars :D could either be at the shore or roof top. tapos i'd set up the area with candles and christmas lights (not sure how to pull that up on a shore set up) basta something like that. overrated and cheesy pero, that's it   

3. If you had something to say to that person, what would it be?

stay with me forever and love me as if there's no tomorrow---[T*ng*na ang CHEESY!:))]

>can you wait for me? until i'm ready? (awtsuuuuuuu)

4. If you were to marry someone now, who'd it be?

HAHA :)

>hmmmm. definitely Chris Evans :)))

5. Let's say you BOTH ARE READY?

GO! :)) LOLFEST

>i'm so dowwn :)))

6. If there was something you wanted to hear from the person you like, what'd be?

edi the most positive reply that i could get from my statement in #3 :D

> SAME ANSWER!!! :))

7. Let's say you're about to die, what will you tell that person?just because i'm dead it doesn't mean that i will let go. *yikes ang creepy ko :))

>maybe in another life, when we are both cats. (awwwwwww)

8. If you could think of the greatest gift to that person, what would it be?

!? All my sufferings.

>that would be my time. 

9. Let's pretend that fate decided to let you choose the one girl that would fall for you, who would it be and why?

you mean "one boy that would fall for me"? hindi ko alam eh.

>fate? eh ako naman pipili whatever happens diba? labo, di ko gets :))

10. Last. If that person said "I love you" what would you say?

!? I waited ,like , forever ---ang emo mo reshan but i would say the same thing :)

>I'm not ready. (landi)