busy.

I guess I wont be able to give a decent update about my life rn.
its been crazzzzyyyy. ive been really busy lately.
yun lang. dont wanna put in details kung bat ako busy and what's giving me a hard time. hehe.
oh well, oath taking tomorrow. so much errands today so kbye.

career.

Do you think I need to chill a little bit?
I thought I have gotten my life all figured out but then, i think i've figured it out too much!
I mean, What's wrong with me is that, i dont do "sakto", with me it always has to be a little too much or a little too less.
i can't do "just right", "exact" laging may sobra or kulang.

I have just passed my board/licensure exam and I know I should be like chillin and all but i am thinking about graduate school or post grad preceptorships. i dont even have work yet. lol
though, i turned down one of the interviews :D hehe.


my gosh, i think i need to chill a bit. enjoy work first and then study ortho after a few months. that's the plan.

esthetic dentistry, hmmm. im not sure where to enroll, idk, first things first, ortho.

goodbye social media. you make me lose my mind when I see my friends'/ batchmates' achievements and you make me want to compete. I just can't. i am competitive at heart. i need to relax. I shouldnt be envious when in the first place, i did this to myself, kaya ako nahuhuli.

uggggh. i hate this. shit. im stressing about unimportant stuff again.
sobrang no time for other stuff na talaga.
 

#adulting

I am making my CV. wahahaha.
i feel so old. -_-
goodbye comfort zone. hehe.
it's not like i havent worked in a dental clinic before. it's just that i feel that i have more responsibility now.
i don't know why. hehehe.
time to pay it forward.

Legit DMD here :)

did I just reveal my real nameeee hahaha :))

OMG, I still can't believe it! legit na!!!:)
all my sacrifices and hard work have paid off. yay!
this is for you parents!!! :)

May I never Forget...

Everything that I have learned when I was studying for boards.

I was contented and happy and focused in achieving my goals.

I hope I wont lose that. I feel like i had my inner peace that time.
sana i still have it in me.

funny.

funny how it looks so easy.
one moment i was self destructive the next thing people knew is that I got my life back on track that easy.

truth is, its not easy.
I struggled so hard to get my shit together.
I gave up a lot.
I gave up important things or stuff i clung onto (at that time, and they're not important btw, i just thought they were)

what I'm trying to say is that.
whatever ive been through. it wasn't easy.

basta. stop judging na lang kasi.

Oops.

Have I mentioned that I'm done with the pracs phase of my board exam already?
LOL if I havent, i'm sorry. its just that ive been going out a lot and this is not like a vlog na its bette if you see footage of stuff that I do while i'm out. anywaaaaaay.

anxiety strikes again.

I HATE NOT DOING ANYTHING. I GET CAUGHT UP IN MY THOUGHTS AND IT MAKES ME SAD AND UPSET. :(

yeah, maybe i need to spend more time with my friends.
friends. Do I have friends?
I dunno, even If i do have, all of them are busy.

plus, in my 25 years of existence all my bestfriends migrated to USA. yup as in literally all of them.

first, my first ever bestfriend when i was still in pre school. we were bestfriends until we were in grade 3 but then she left the country and during that time there are no social media or whatever so ive never heard anything from her ever since she left.

my 2nd bestfriend when I was in grade 5 to 6 migrated to US too i think first week of high school (1st year)

my 3rd bestfriend, high school til now, migrated to US when we were in 3rd year college(?)
it sucks no? we still chat and message each other every day though.

Am I cursed to not have a bestfriend beside me? huhuhu. :(
sad life.


ewan ko, i just dont find anyone na super nagfifit personality ko. Yung music, taste sa fashion and sa food. wala eh.

I'm fine without a boyfriend, just give me a bestfriend. pero sympre no one can replace jo christ naman.
what if i migrate na din? maybe I should.    

I'm Back but I have to go.

Slept more than 12 hours last night. It feels like all my pagod have accumulated kaya yun.
anyway, my views went up big time. what happened.

I have to got because i have to return my friend's dental materials that i've borrowed fro my practical exam. anyway hafta prep na. will update tom, if i have time :)

New year, New life? Nah.

if there's one thing that i have learned from 2015, it's you can change and become a better person any time of the year if you want to. It doesnt have to be around this time(1st day of the year).

Tsaka, its not that hard to be better. all you need is Will and Faith.
5ml of desire to change and become better,
500mg of Faith in yourself that you can become a better person
and  10mg of push from those who love you.

ad lib (use as much as you want, HAHAHAHA)

anywaaaaay, ayoko ng madrama 1st entry for this year.

quick recap, I havent updated this blog for a long time because i have been very busy with practicing for my practicals.(so redundant).
its been a year since I handled a patient sooo hello backaches and body pain lol (OA but true)

after my practical exam, i have an appointment with my dentist (my new dentist is Doc ABS! my bestie) plus another appointment with my tito fred, he's an orthopedic. I have to have my back bones checked. kasssiiii i feel like i have developed scoliosis dahil sa entire dental student duties ko and etc.
dapat 2014 ko pa to napacheck eh.

anyway, hafta go to my tita's place na.
i'll update this after pracs. starting tomorrow, i'll be loaded na.