In another life, I would make you stay.

Advice: Skip the whole drama, scroll down and read the most important part of this blog entry.


HAHAHA. joke time, "the one that got away" si kuya na i met in this club na from hawaii. lol. idk what came into my mind para iconsider syang the one that got away. anywayyy. eto na magiging honest na ako kung sino. :D

You know what sucks? it's when you know you already have forgotten someone and then you see his name (written by him) in your lecture notes and youre like... WHAT THE FCK, after a year, daaaaaamn nigg* :))

then you were browsing through your cloud files and you came across a screenshot of his old text message saying "Nasa school ka na? loaded ka nga pala today. galingan mo doc. I miss you. I love you :)" #awtssuuuuu and i'm like here saying I don't need anyone in my life (yup, i still don't need anyone in my life though).

He's actually the best guy I ever dated or had(?). I'm just stupid. I mean, i screwed up. sinayang ko.
hindi ko sya binigyan ng value. He did the right thing when he cut me off. I wasn't ready, I was actually kind of using him at that time? rebound? idk, basta. half hearted lang ako sa relationship namin (we werent together officially, but we were exclusively dating). and he was too (siguro kasi nafifeel nya na ganun din ako, hindi seryoso) anyway, he is my "the one that got away"
for real na to.

Na feel ko kasi that time, hindi pa ako ready talaga, hanggang ngayon naman. I mean diba, to be in a relationship, dapat buo ka. i mean you complete yourself. di mo kailangan ng iba to complete you.
eh right now, i don't need anyone pero I still need to be established. idk if that's the right term pero diba, gusto ko, matured na ako. na as in super matured. tapos independent na ako tapos may work and may license to practice as a dentist na ako. kumbaga, feel ko i dont deserve to date anyone right now. kailangan ko muna ayusin sarili ko. if you know what I mean.

siguro by that time, hindi ko na din naman sya mahahabol. we don't talk anymore plus, i don't really do second chances. for me kasi if it did not workout the first time, baka kasi hindi talaga. wag ng ipilit, mas masakit lang haha.

so ayun. right person, wrong time? best prospect, wrong time.

because the right person, will be there at the right time :)