#KAGULOST

(edit: whoever said that going to the malls around this date would be a good idea? UGH.)

Sneaky Mirror Shot @ Boon Tong Kee (UPTC

What’s up with me? HAHAHA.

I have been reaalllyyyy, reaaaalllyyy busy lately, I’m terribly sorry (like, anybody care lol)

Anyway, I have been stressing so much about the practicals (last phase of my licensure exam). Becaaaauseee… ugh. No comment(Srsly though, No time to practice. busy lahat. hassle. di ko pa nameet patient ko. Di pa ko marunong mag wax pattern. Feeling ko behind na ako. My anxiety is killing me) .

I did not enroll in a review class because it’s way too expensive. 13k for four days? The eff! My review/tutorial classes for the theoretical phase is cheaper pa nga. Kaloka. I won't make my parents spend that much. Yung application fee pa lang and materials and bayad sa patient i think would cost me around 20k na tapos review pa for 13k? eeeh. no way. Ang laki na ng expenses ng parents ko for me. I can't ask for that much na. kasi hello, I shouldnt be depending on them na nga eh. 

Anyhoo,

I am so freaking tired. 

This morning, I went out with papa and kuya nel to buy stuff.(hanggang afternoon)

Papa asked me if I needed to buy anything, I said I’m good, I don’t need anything. He even asked me if I want that wallet from Herschel. I do like it but I don’t need it. (yup, nagbago na talaga ako haha)

So here’s a funny story. During lunch with pa and kuya nel, sabi ni papa, kuya nel and I should go ahead na if we want to go home na. okay lang daw if iwan na namin sya. Hmmmm. My brother and I gave each other the “look” (FYI: papa used to have a girlfriend. I’m not sure though if theyre still together. Pero obviously, we don’t trust him anymore).

According to him, he’s going to meet up with his cousin ( tito Junior). Ayun, nawala na kami sa mood ni kuya nel. We sort of think na he’s going to meet up with his Girlfriend/Ex GF. So sabi namin ni kuya nel, we'll wait for him na lang, magiikot ikot pa kami sa  mall.

Edi he left na, we waited for him na makalayo tapos hinanap namin sya ni kuya nel. My brother even asked me if I’m ready to see him with another girl. I told him idk, I’m not sure. Basta magpapakita tayo na nakita natin sila, if meron nga.

So ayun. We saw him at triple O’s BUT with our Tito nga. Tawa lang kami ng tawa ng brother ko. HAHAHA sobrang TH kami. Pero feel namin, he only met up with our tito kasi di kami pumayag na mauna na tsaka we’ll wait for him. Maybe the girl is asking for money. Siguro may secret kapatid kami sa labas. Omg. Di ako magagalit sa bata if meron but I’ll hate the mom for sure. My gosh. That bitch knows na my father has a family and yet dikit pa ng dikit.

Srsly, di ko alam. I bet my papa says na he’ll leave us for her. Pero asa ka girl. He won’t. He may not be in good terms with my mom all the time, but he cannot leave us, his kids. I don’t think so.

Bahala sya. I don’t think he’ll shame his self sa brothers and sister nya. Good luck with that.

ANYWAY, enough with the hattteeeee. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, paguwi sa bahay, samahan ko naman si mama sa mall. Ugggghh. KAPAGOD

Big difference: Shopping with papa = zero impulsive buying. Kung ano lang nasa shopping list, that’s it. Wala na extra

Shopping with mama= we have to stop at every shop na she see’s na feel niya may maganda. Aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh sakit sa ulo. And nahilo ako with mama.

I have to pass out na.lol

Anyway, sige na. fine, I’ll just enjoy the holidays. After Christmas, fine, legit practice na.

Whew. Everybody’s putting their families first. Maybe I should too. I need to loosen up again.

This whole goal/achievement that ive been setting up for myself, made me the uptight person I used to be.  

Idk, like I have to do everything sa To do list ko. And yung exact time pa. Nakakastress eh pero what can I do about it. I’m better that way than the other person I’ve been. Yung walang paki. Ugh.

Whatever.

  

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